I made a dream yesterday and when i woke up,my mind was freaking confused man...2 weeks ago saw that FUCKER photo with another girl that he like,i wonder why i feel so heart pain when i saw it...i really wish i can totally can't remember him at all..he just like a nightmare to me man...his shadow keep hunting me down,i feel so suffocated!!!I don't know what to do,i wonder is it i have done wrong in the pasts to be with him...its been 4 years i have broke off with him but until now i still get to see him when i wasn't in a good prepare of it...some more i stay near by him,just across the neighborhood man!!!How i wish i can erase him out of my mind...now i have a wonderful family,i don't wish to do anythings that can break out my family at all...if want to compare him with my husband,he still far away from him because my husband will never betray me and having affair at outside...and he dote me a lot,his love for me will never change but for that FUCKER is different...he lied to me thousand of times and made my life miserable at the peak of time,he have made me cried for him but never ever change at all....i hate him...i really hate him a lot...how i wish he can die in front of me...idiot!!!!