Today have a terrible headache...after a few days thinking,i decided
to find a 8-5 Office Lady job so that i can b able to take care of Reyna
when i'm back home from work..and will be able to accompany
her play or else children will think we don't love them and i don't
wish Reyna think it this way..now she become more and more clever and
know what is right and wrong but she has being too pamper by
so many people so when people say or scold her,she will start her
drama and throwing temper..i can say she got a bad temper too!
She getting more and more independents man..if i fell asleep,
she will enjoy herself watch tv and not doing other dangerous things,
i really feel happy that ALLAH have given me a good daugther.
If i never abort the 2nd child then now i have another son
which is clever too...i hope ALLAH will give me a son for my
next child as to fulfill my father dream..haha...because he love
boy alot...his mind set got abit traditional man...i wonder when will
i have 2nd child man...??????

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Today i went back home and visit mummy and daddy...it was a last minute called back and mummy faster prepared food for me and Reyna...i love it...she gave me a CHRISTIAN DIOR COMPACT...i really love it...just see the casing is already so wonderful and nice man..actually wanted follow mummy go spectacles hut and do her new GUCCI sunglass and end up she say she will go down on this few days and do it man..i also wish i can do but i have already do a new MIUMIU specs man...haha...wait for next time man...hmm...today mummy told me to go back malaysia on June because my another grandmother never see before Reyna so wanted me to bring her back and bring her to jalan2 and shopping for her things...i really wish to go back some more mummy say all expenses she come out...haha..and all my auntie so rich...so they don't mind paying for my stuff man...gonna bring Reyna do her passport man...so troublesome..have to go until Lavender...damn it...so far...........hmm...gonna log off...tired man...(=


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Next week darling gonna work everyday loh...i think i gonna feel so lonely as well as reyna because he only will be at home on weekend and i thinking what we can do for our day man....haix...that time we have quarrel until like shits and now i realized our love have become stronger but i hope that his job won't affect to our marriage at all because it's not worth it at all man...hmm...so confused man...i don't know what i can do for my rest of the day...gonna find somethings to do or else i'm going to get crazy and think of those stupid things again.I know he more and more love me but i just don't know how to express my love to him...he keep jealous that alot of guys like me but if i really want to have another fling,i long ago do that...maybe he still think i got feeling for my ex boyfriends but i totally got no more feeling and thinking about him...hope he will understand my feeling...and of course i love him alot because i have never have met a guy more better than him in all ways...(=
Maybe gonna plan every week 1 or 2 times go his work place and fetch him back from work...haha...he sure will like it and i can pass my time...*SOB2*


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Happily riding with her Barney and friends

Today is a wonderful day....my darling accompany me to Chinatown and get my Taiwan masks recommend by (nu ren wo zui da) and bought a japanese sea salt shower foam which is anti aging...OMG...im so happy man...after that we went vivocity and i bought 2 pair of Levi's slipper which is for me and darling...haha....he was damn happy man....we today really enjoy ourself man..hmm...just now finish bath and try 1 of the mask and it feel so good...really tighter my skin...hmm...some more the sales person was so friendly and give me the sample for their BB cream from Japan...hmm...if i try 1 week was very good then i will went back and buy from him...haha...just now at Facebook saw that Azzim 2nd girlfriend broke off with him due to found out he timer her...haix....i already know it will happen....im speechless...haha

==WONDERFUL DAY.........*THUMBS UP*==
Finally today darling already took back his pink i.c and now he no longer have to wake up in the damn early morning...at last this 2 years hard time has pass and now he can focus on his career and strive for our luxury life in future.Lucky that he have never AWOL at all...or else won't be so afst finish his national service....yeepee...tomorrow we are going out to shopping and celebrate...gonna have a great fun man...i can't wait to go and buy my new beauty product...haha....scare will look old so must do alot of mask and use more product for anti aging....haha....(=

Yesterday went to my father-in-law house and i'm glad that he felt so happy when get to see us..at first we thought wanted to stay awhile end up time pass so fast and until 12 plus in the midnight then went back home.I chatted with Alicia alot of things that was so shioking...i get to know and realize about the "hantu people" can't be trusted at all...not even can be good to them..haha...maybe ALLAH meant to let me know so many people who been doing all this hypocrite things behind us...poor thing my father-in-law and i'm glad that i get to realize my father-in-law actually dote on us alot but he don't know how to show out to us...(=
After a long time chatting gathering,we went back home bath and went to JP again and buy food,milk and new fan again...haha...now my room got 3 fans....power right....!!!!Today we send mamat back to Chinatown and i change my mind and went for hair-extension,OMG...i never expect that alot of people say that i look pretty in long hair..haha...soo.......happy=p
I do my extension damn fucking long man,from 5pm until 9 plus...so tiring sitting at the chair....my buttock like want to burst off...haha....i felt so bad too because Ellyna meet me together for extension but the people who do the promotion damn shit so she decided to do another day due to money not enough...i hope she won't angry me...)= Forgive me alright?After that went back to my mother-in-law house and slack until 1 plus then reach home now after finish bath...*YAWN*damn tired...gonna stop now...

Recently i wonder why i been no mood to talk and enjoy times with darling..i feel like our marriage has drifted apart,somehow i feel curious,do i still love him?or i just want to let Reyna have a healthy and happy family so that i keep on moving on with this marriage?I feel so stress all this while and i have nobody to talk to due to my close friends is busy with their life and works..he keep saying i have change and i told him that i did not change at all,he asked me is it i don't love him anymore and i just can't answer him straight forward..i admit i have a wonderful family but i don't like the way how he treated me,i can understand that he wanted me to take care of Reyna due to outsider is can't be trusted at all but he have never spare a thought for me,he have never ask what i really want for my life and even i told him,he will forget about it!He always got his full of grandmother reasons to talk back to me but i don't like it at all and i just feel so suffocated being with him..i feel no freedom at all that i have to listen and follow his way to get on with my life,i got the urges to divorce with him but i can't be selfish to think for myself because i have to spare a thought for Reyna,when i see Reyna face while typing i just can't control my tears from dropping..i ask myself before why am i being like a fool and follow what he ask me to...he is not the guy i wanted...i wonder how long i still can tahan...hope ALLAH can guide me...

MARRIAGE COULD BE SO SWEET OR REALLY SOUR

Marriage is the most important part of any human life
This is your biggest and could be the longest commitment to each other as a husband or wife

Marriage success depends how committed you are to each other
When there is a conflict, both of you try resolve it rather than to fight with each other

So be wise, because your life can change based on decision you make
Remember, marriage is the biggest responsibility you take

Financial, communication, romance, loyalty, forgiveness and caring are the most important factors in a successful marriage
That’s why divorce rate is so high among people who married at very young age

Nobody can guarantee you a successful marriage
If it is sweet, you live happly ever after, if it is sour, you feel like a bird that's trapped in a gage

You may get married, because you fell in love with each other
But, if you are not right match, conflicts can kill your love and you may even end up to hate each other

You are wrong, if you think having children can hold you together
God for given, if think doesn’t work between two of you nothing will stop you from leaving each other

Please don’t have a baby, if you are not a responsible parents
Is not fair to kid’s to live with a single parents (mom or Dad)

Today feel so hang over...i just feel like i'm getting sick soon..tomorrow have to go toa payoh to visit my father-in-law...hmm...feel so sianz due to have to pretend good infront of that Alicia..!We going for awhile and then going for my dinner...and want to went for my hair extension due to last minute changes of my mind..haha..i just can't wait man because it's been years that i have seen myself long hair..if tomorrow no time then i will go on Sunday..somemore is far man...i have to go until Chinatown...OMG....damn far...just now saw at Facebook that mira put her status and she quarrel with people...and that Alicia also said that got people said about them...i kinda feel so childish about them man...1 still young and another dah old then don't want face and post out all this shits..this is called Retribution due to what they and their family have done for all this years bad things...want to act terror at Facebook,but i guess if face to face talk they sure dare not lorx...especially that Felicia think she very terror and big FUCK that she is Azrul girlfriend so wanna help mira his sister to solve the problem...aiyo...go and eat shit better la....she can bully small kid but come to my age people,she scare man...my mouth itchy wanna said them at Facebook but later if quarrel then i will put darling in a susah position man..arh....all i can say that they everytime don't like this or that person and keep bad-mouth them so mow it's their turn kena back because they ain't perfect at all and they got no right to judge a person until so over...so serve them right!!!!haha

Bought my LV Belt so long also never put the photo...haha...finally now got time to put liao...hmm...my next target is to get my LV messenger slingbag...but darling say wait for few months later,he will buy for me...haha..so happy...soon...i can get back to work then i can buy 1 branded bag per month...(= Soon my cupboard will full of my bag...and i'm going to get another new cupboard for Reyna clothing then her old cupboard i will put all my shoes and bags...i wonder can fit anot because i buying more and more shoes and bags again...hmm..gonna think of somethings to solve my problem...now my target is i'm getting my hair perm 1 or 2 weeks times and next week most probably get my eyebrow touch-up but have to wait for my mother to help me book appointment first..after that i need to go for my facial at my mother's friend shop...i been 1 year never do facial liao so better get my face clean up due to keep having break out recently..i must look young2 or else later give people make fun man...girl must know how to maintain her complexion,looks and figure or else guys will run away from them....haha!!!!Gonna end here,i gonna get prepare due to later going for my supper...(=

Last Saturday went to Suntec for the electronic sales,kinda boring man because they got sales like never sales at all...still so expensive and those which are cheap already been sold out...alamak,Singaporean very super kiasu man...i guess the first day people already bought it...!After a round of the electronic sales,we went out of there because the people there just don't know what is manners and keep pushing people around...just can't stand it like the stuff gonna grab by people on the spot...shit man!!!So get out from there,we went Balaclava awhile..i never expect they already so busy working due to that day is BOXING DAY and alot of foreigner has came there...especially some BOXER..cool...too bad never get to saw them at all!After balaclava,we went jalan2 and i bought some of my make up stuffs and bought for Reyna toy and clothes...haha...soo..happy...!End up after a one day shopping,we went home at night around 8pm plus and quickly bath and went Jurong point and grab some bites due to makansutra too many people so back JP and eat...)=

FELICIA TAN,YOU STILL DON'T WANNA STOP ALL YOUR CHILDISH GAME?IF YOU WANNA PLAY WITH ME THEN I'M ON FOR IT BECAUSE I CAN MAKE YOU DEEPLY REGRET FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE AND SAID URGH..IF YOU WANNA ASK AZRUL AND HELP YOU THEN GO AHEAD BECAUSE TO ME,HE IS NOTHING TO ME LEH...SO COWARD UNTIL KENA SCOLD BY AHMAD THEN FASTER CALLED AZRUL,PLEASE LEH...IF YOU WANT FIND TROUBLE WITH ME,YOU BETTER THINK TWICE BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH MY HUSBAND FIRST!IF YOU WANNA SAID WHY I DRAG AHMAD OUT THEN YOU ARE DAMN STUPID BECAUSE I'M HIS WIFE...HE GOT THE RIGHT TO PROTECT ME AND HE HAVE MAKE IT CLEAR THAT IF ONE MORE TIME YOU CREATE PROBLEM AND LET HIM HEAR ANYTHINGS THEN YOU GONNA BE SORRY FOR IT AND I'M GOING TO EXPOSED YOUR DAMN EVIL THINGS!!!WANNA KNOW SOMETHINGS?I ALREADY SPOKEN TO DALINA AND EVEN SHE ALSO KINDA LAZY TO ENTERTAIN YOU AND PEOPLE GOT BOY/GIRLFRIEND SO WHY CAN'T YOU LEAVE THEM ALONE AND KEEP PESTER AZZIM MEET YOU,YOU ARE SUCH A THICK SKIN PERSON AND THE WAY YOU HAVE DONE IS LIKE A PROSTITUTE K,BITCH!!!WHAT A SHAMELESS PERSON YOU ARE UNTIL AZZIM ASK DALINA TO STAY AWAY FROM YOU BECAUSE WE KNOW YOU TOO WELL AND WHAT KIND OF PERSON ARE YOU!!!!YOU WANNA PLAY,ALRIGHT OUR GAME HAS JUST BEGIN....I CAN SLOWLY PLAY WITH YOU..YOU JUST WAIT AND SEE!!!!BEAR THIS IN MIND,YOU GONNA REGRET!!!

HATRED AND TRUST

Do you trust anybody?
I never trust anybody except my husband,my daughter and my own family.

Why don't you trust anybody like your friends?
I once being betrayed by my friends and it's not just one time,just because i trust them and they misused my trusts.

What did they do to misused your trust?
They will start to bad-mouthed and create a lot of stories and craps .

Do you feel disappointed?
At first,i did feel disappointed but after that when think back,they are not worth my sadness at all and what ever i do and said is the truth,nobody believe me except my husband.

Are you a person that good in lying?
IN the pasts when i'm young,i did lie before but now i don't tell lies because i have grow up and already 22,got my own family and only my husband and my parents knows me well and know whether i'm telling the truth or lies.

What do you hate about people around you?
they are so FAKE,they TALK BIG,they got a bad mindset(back stabber & stories maker),they bad-mouth people surround them,they look down people and never want to lose!

What did you learn after this lesson?
I get to know that i can not judge a person by it's looks even though the person act so good and close to me but i can never predict what their mind are thinking,one minute they talk this but another minute they talk different.They claim that they are perfect in all ways.

So do you know who is the person that wearing a fake mask in front of you?
OH YES,i know who are they and i will beware of them because once bitten and never get the chance kena bitten anymore.

Who trusted you the most?Who be there for you when you're down?
My husband and my family.They always support me in all ways,they give me what i want and their trusts to me.

Do you hate those untrusted people?
OH..i don't hate them but i know one day they will get back what they do to me...some more is double of what they did to me.Karma is looking for them,only wait for the right time and they will get it..good luck to them..Lastly i wanna tell those people that before you wanna say about me,please go and see the damn mirror about yourself first because you ain't perfect at all...you got no right to judge me because you don't know me well at all!!!!

Yesterday went to ICA to help my mum do her pass LT pass..damn crowded and full of fucking china people...so irritating man..somemore the previous day i never get to sleep and i was damn tired...after that we went to beach road and eat..the fish soup was damn nice and the fish meat was so fresh man...!After that we went to arab street and bugis street jalan2 and i bought a lot of things and my mum bought for me a sling bag...OMG,i damn like it...haha!!!!After a long day shopping and do all the stuff,i was so damn tired...and when reached home,i faster remove my make up and bath..lying down at my bed...i slept soundly until the time for my dinner...shiok!!!!Guess what,i saw yuan biao at bugis...i never expect will saw him again and i just pretend i never saw him at all..when i went another shop looking for bag,i saw him again man...he purposely cum out from his shop and see me but i don't give a damn because i no longer got any feeling for him man...i knew he must be shock that after my pregnancy,i can slim down back like the past...haha...he can fuck off from my life...he is a piece of shit to me now!!!

Few days never update my blog le...so happy that last Sunday darling put another new tattoo for me on my butt after pestering him for so long...haha...!!Yesterday Azzim and Mamat came our house and we chat for so long and i sold him my photo printer...we chat about our things lost and finally we get to know that i'm not the only one who lost money on that day and we suspect got toyo(that dirty things),OMG so scary man...at first i got suspect other people steal but now i get the truth man!Haha...finally bought my new LV belt...soo..happy...my next target is Reyna Burberry birthday present...haha...2 more months to her 2nd birthday,so fast man...hehe...

Reyna Preparing to follow Mamat pray time...haha..(=

My new tattoo at my leg,done by my darling.
Another photo can't upload due to privacy...

Super tiring day from Friday until today because Friday went to my mother in law house and sleep till Saturday then went back home some more slept very late..i wonder why on Friday all of us keep hungry non stop and we went a lot of place to eat our dinner and supper.Darling bought his new tattoo things on that day..haha...get to talk to Azzim girlfriends and realised that the fucking Felicia very good in making stories and wanna cause people to quarrel...babi...soon or later she will get it back...i just wait and see..like to lie without blinking her eyes at all...cool...but if she never kena,then in future her children kena it...ARH...don't wanna talk about that bitch anymore....i'm soo...happy that darling do new tattoo for me at my leg and near my private part there and touch up my feet the last year tattoo which is my birth date...hmm...very nice...he do it perfect for me...thanks a lot,my dear!!! I will upload the photo soon due to camera no battery..lazy to charge now..haha...gonna go and play game...woohoo...

Today is a busy day,Azzim tattoo power box spoilt so bring his customer to our house and borrow darling tattoo power box and do for them tattoo.Finally i get to saw Kenny that fucker admire...haha...but too bad the girl don't like him because she like Azzim...hmm...i wonder who Azzim love in his heart...haha...he still not prepare to stable down...keep enjoying his life...y got so many girl like him leh?Maybe he is good in sweet talk...haha...Hope one day he can find his true love...bless him...But poor thing me cant rest at all and Reyna got no choice but to sleep in a noisy house...lolx...